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I am tired. I had a lot of nightmares last night, mostly about zombies, death and corpses rotting, probably inspired by the body horror in that movie last night. It is spooky season. I have to prepare for a family session tomorrow and for talking to a school on Wednesday and that makes me nervous.

Played pathfinder tonight. Getting excited for running Ravenloft soon on the discord server. Also some point in real life. I am obsessed with Ravenloft right now. I am trying to read all the novels, I have a bunch of the sources. I am also currently running Ravenloft for Pathfinder. My friend Joe has volunteered to creat Strahd for me since I was struggling with making a level twenty vampire lord.

Very accomplished today. Got a lot done, had a three hour gap at work and was able to finish some extra chores and take a nap.

I started off today stressed and depressed. Managed to shake my way out of the funk. Then my last client came in repeatedly telling me she wanted to die. I called her mom in and did a suicide assessment. I think it's resolved but she was in so much pain and she got out of a month long hospitalization last Tuesday and her stressor is that she missed a month of school, so more hospital would not be better. Then I found out that my records were subpoenaed. I was prepared for this but it is still stressful. Overall I worked for three hours today and they were supremely stressful.

Today was a better day. I worked a full eight hours, saw eight people. No one was in a deep state of crisis. So that was good. Got to pet the bun tonight. She put up with it for three whole minutes.

I slept terribly last night. The cat woke me up at one desperately needing attention and after ten minutes when he was satisfied I was left awake. I tried to sleep but terrible thoughts crept into my mind. I tried reading for a while, then I got up, did the dishes, cleaned the animal cages and worked on my pathfinder game. Then I tried to sleep again and watched videos in bed with Alex until 4:30 before trying to sleep again. I was awake again at 8:00, still feeling restless. It might be a hypomanic episode, I have felt on edge and tearful. I cried at YouTube videos. I hope it passes soon.

I love this show so much. Who would have thought of a romantic comedy featuring Blackbeard. I am disappointed how Blackbeard handled the break-up. His return to being a bloodthirsty pirate who murders his friends was not cool.

Long day today. Alex had a half day so he was out at 10:15. We went for a drive and then went to work. It was a full day. Now we are watching Only Murders in the Building.

The fatigue which plagues me from my Lyme disease is upon me today. I can only assume that it is from the Lyme disease, the doctor has found no other cause. I have good days and bad days, today is one of the bad ones. I slept ten and a half hours last night. I spent the day a bit fatigued.

I got up around nine am, after having gone to bed shortly after nine pm. Went for my morning run, did my usual chores, dishes and tending to the needs of the pets, two guinea pigs a rabbit and a cat. Then I did some reading until it was time to go to the memorial event of my husband's uncle. It was a luncheon, with a cash bar, although I cannot drink due to my fatty liver. I lasted a good hour and a half before the fatigue set in.

Then it was a drive home where I read some more, before I just laid in bed in the dark. I can not nap, but I was just resting. It is difficult lately, last night we had friends over and just after eight thirty I was ready for bed. It is hard to tell what will be a good day and which will be bad.

I have been reading Pride and Prejudice, because I keep seeing memes about it I do not understand and I am on the waiting list at the library for the next book in the Cry Wolf series. So far, it is a bunch of rich people being mean and petty to each other. Not sure I will like it, but I am not yet inclined to put it down.

I have also started learning watercolor. I realize now that my childhood art teacher had not explained to me the finer points of technique and how to apply it so now I will have to do with instructional manuals and YouTube videos. I hope to paint tomorrow if I am not too fatigued.

Maybe tonight I will start Squid Game, the next on my list of Netflix shows to watch. Or perhaps I will rewatch Bladerunner, I want to watch that movie again.